sometimes i’m so happy i feel like i’m about to explode and i can’t articulate my words very well so i just sit there and smile so hard that my face hurts and my legs do this weird involuntary kicking thing which is embarrassing but

i’ve never felt like this in my life and it’s really weird when it happens because i feel like i’m going to burst into tears at any moment and i’m not sure if it’s out of joy or because i know it won’t last and i’ll be unhappy again eventually

why is being happy so upsetting for me

why do i always find something wrong when everything is actually okay